lets start at thursday:
i left school 30 min early and headed to laurens...from there we went to the beach where the day started a lil slow. but then...we got in the water and we had a blast. a ton of ppl showed up and we all just had a really wonderful time. i decided my new favorite thing to do is lie on my stomach on a towel on the sand while some one plays their acoustic gutiar and sings any song. it is sooo amazing.
then after goin back in the water and smores, the tide came way way up. like higher than the pit. it was crazzy. then we had som really amazing worship. i mean like really good. when jean leads it, it is usually good but this was beyond that. the first song, i was just looking out onto the water. the waves were crashing up against my legs and my feet were sinking deeoer into the sand. then the water became completly waveless for like 15 seconds and i got this vision of Jesus walking on the water towards us. calmly but not hesitant. and i immeadatly thought of the story in the Bible when Jesus Deciples were in the boat and Peter got out and walked to Jesus and fell. Jesus said, "you of little faith why do you doubt."
it got me thinking how many times a day we doubt God. not necessarly in the big things but the little things. like the times when you accidently use a curse word when you run a red light or the time when you tell that little white lie and you tell your friend that that dress really looks wonderful on her when it is really terrible. and sometimes these may not seem like doubts but if you really think about it, why wont you tell your friend that it looks bad? because you dont want to make her mad and then she wont talk to you. but God would ment that relationship if he wants to.
then i started thinking about all of the other bigger doubts that people have. like the times ytou think that that could never happen to you, or you could never talk or speak like that. it is incredible to think about all of the doubt we have. and how silly most of them are. Satan knows how to trick people and it makes me really frustrated.
a really funny example is the tide. i know if we all prayed really hard and not one of us had a doubt in our mind, the tide would of not come so high. i have to say i was one of thoes doubtful people. but God could do it. he can do anything. plus the water made this worship that much better.
the next part of this vision occured when the waves reappeared in the water. Jesus Just stopped and stood on the water. right before the waves cracked. God is in our reach. he isnt that far you just have to meet him halfway. like the doubts that we have make God have to stop and work on us. when we dont have thoes doubts he walks to us and with us.
his presence was so heavy. it was one of the best time of worship i have ever encountered. God is incredible guys. i just dont know how to communicate that any better. he gives you a peace and comfort inside. a sence of security. the best thig is that he never changes. ever. and you could think that he does but guess what, it isnt him, it is you. you change and become different people as you mature, but God will always be the same.
so then today friday:
i went shopping and got a new bathing suit! yay! and then me and Natilie went out to lunch. after that we made our way to barnes and noble when we read about or sextology. it isnt as bad as your thinlking...it is al about astrology and tells you your greek myth. it also tells you what your numbwer is and what Bible character you are. im sarah and diana. basically im motherly and a provider...yet i hesitate and hold back. lol it was just really funny. then the thing we did next changed my life. guys ive met the man im going to marry. like serously. we go to the sancuary at church and the chapel team is warming up for graduation. there is a man on stage. he is wearing a very tight tank top. omgsh. soooooooo beautiful! long blond hair, perfet arms, and one of the best necks i have ever seen (if you dont know i have a thing for necks). then he opened his mouth and an amazing voice came out of it. then cometo find out, he is a dancer! and a drama kid. like what a perfect man. i bet he plays the gutiar too. he was graduating so hes older than me. omgsh. i melt every time i think of his name! he is soooo amazing!!! i will know him. Natlie also thinks she fell in love with him...but she didnt ...she just thinks so...and when she grow some to go and talk to him and realizes that "oh this man is perfect for amanda" she will introduce us...and i will know him. this day will be amazing adn i cant wait for it. : )
so then i had my first night with my new 6th graders and it was a ton of fun. we played 2 truths and a lie, and apples to apples. it was soooo fun. my girls are amazing and we are going to own at camp.
so i guess this is long enough... just wanted update... tell me how your life is...i like reading essays: )
